Sunday, February 24, 2013

. . . 29 years . . .


. . . another goodbye . . .


a few days ago, once again i witnessed another family leaving Geneva. this time its our lovable AP, 3G, Hjh Kam and Adib...

counting up to today, including 3G and his family, i've seen 7 good colleagues leave (including 3 Ambassadors, one of them passed away too... i'll mention that on another post as a tribute, insyallah). i said it before, and i'll say it again. i never got used to seeing people leave. each one has made such a deep impact from just being here for the past 5 years. so many things shared. so many memories made.

i have this feeling that i am just standing stationary on one spot while everyone is moving along. its not that i am left behind nor do i choose to stay. its just that i love that particular moment of time.

just after a day that 3G left, the office seemed a bit more quieter than usual... probably its just me. probably the others also feel we lost another good colleague.

but thats just for now. let me move on to the future. but before that, i would like to relay my deepest appreciations to 3G and his awesome family. i felt that i took him for granted being here making us laugh and feeding us good food all along, i don't know if my appreciation is that enough to cover his big heart. but thank you. thank you so much for the good memories. i wish you good luck for the future and especially a great retirement. i wish his family well too. thank you. thank you. thank you. this goes out to the other colleagues that have left too. i miss you all so much. but i am definitely sure that i'll see you around again whether it be here, or in Brunei. heck, in either of the continents.

i pray for the best of Allah's blessings to all of you. amin.


Saturday, February 23, 2013

. . . seriously, WTF? . . .


this week is just... wow. omg. must be something i've done. i can think of some karma getting back to me but still, this past week was totally the strangest of my entire time in Geneva. so many wrongs that are damn straight rightly wrong on so many different levels. i don't know whether to feel frustrated, confused, discombobulated, dismembered, depressed... wow. just so many emotions flying through.

i cannot explain it in words. it renders me speechless. blank minded. zip. doo-dah. all that ill shit that be the illest. and i'll be like b**ch what?... i am a pessimist all the way. i don't believe much on good things to happen to me. life is shit as it is. but i accept the shittyness bent over while flipping the bird all to my surroundings. i've developed and upgraded my 'i don't give a flying eff' to a new high.

i just hope it doesn't repeat to the next week... Allah forgive me. i know some of my sins. forgive me for that. the ones that i don't know about, forgive me too.

Astagafirullah hal a'zeem...


Sunday, February 17, 2013

. . . desires of the taste buds . . .


dear Allah, for the love of life and its gifts of food... i love food. so much so it will kill me ever so quickly if i don't give it a caring attention.

i've so far been physically (and mentally) experimenting in healthy living. not that i do follow it strictly. i do have my flaws as i am not perfect in every way but i have made a tremendous amount of achievement(s) throughout the past 3-5 months.

as you've read from my previous post a while back, i started to get into supplement intakes. mostly protein and bodybuilding supplements. no i am not going to pump my body like other muscle heads. my main point was to build a leaner (semi-ripped) body, but most of all, lose weight. i've lost approximately 15kgs. so far i haven't managed to go below 71kgs (current weight). most probably its my limit weight or maybe i need to push harder. but frankly i am happy with this. as i said, i'll reveal the end result by June 2013, InsyAllah...

lately, after a few days of recovering from being sick. not only my sleeping patterns have effed up, so did my appetite. i found myself horribly hungry in the early mornings as if i hadn't had any food the day before. well... technically i didn't eat as much too. and i had to stop taking in supplements and protein shakes as i needed more solid and filling food so that my body could have the energy to fight back the flu that i had.

my mind is now set on food. and i fear i might end up scarfing food at an overdosed rate. but so far i have maintained a very good discipline on food intakes. vegetables, grains and lean meat. been quite broke so i had to revert to eating canned tuna or cheap cuts of meat though... but its not that bad as long as you know how to limit it in various aspects.

to me, the most important is the taste... then comes the appearance and lastly beneficial nutrients.

as an asian, i can never be far apart from salt, soy sauce and oil. i think they are like the holy trinity in asian cooking. no i am not saying its a strong fact, its just my opinion, thats all. and i must say it can be quite dangerous especially when you count in the sodium intake factor.

and being in Europe, i somehow attained the knack of taking in huge amounts of caffeine. especially from energy drinks and coffee. so much so that nowadays the back of neck seems to get quite tense after a dose of coffee. probably a reminder that i need to trim down on caffeine.

since i have been on a fasting period on red meat and chicken, i have commenced since the past week to have urges on becoming a carnivore. and it even influenced my surfing habits. watching endless cooking videos on YouTube...

out of the millions of videos, there is one particular thing i want to get my hands (and teeth) on... i present to you...

cote de beouf

dear God it looks fantastic... its a piece of cuisine art! its equivalent to a Rolls Royce to the culinary world... in my words that is. i saw this once at the butcher back in France but still untrimmed from the ribs. i can't remember how much it costs but normally this would be quite an expensive cut of meat.

it would be my ultimate goal of purchasing this cut and i would cook it with tender care before sinking my teeth into it. i'll probably be getting it end of this month once the bank account is 'energized'... hehehehe... i never had this cut and i am determined to conquer it soon.

for now, i can only think of...

 Doner Kebab

typically a poor man's choice when funds are quite low. costing around 7 - 20 francs a dish, it does comfort my hungry times. the first few months of living alone in Geneva, i tried going vegetarian. didn't work that well. i couldn't stand living like a rabbit. thankfully, Geneva has a number of Muslim restaurants. most being Turkish Kebab joints apart from Indian cuisines. this was probably a special weekend menu for me for a few years before starting my healthy food regime. but back in the days, i used to chow down on what they called an Assiette easily. basically its a plate full of meats with a side of green salad, hummus, garlic yoghurt sauce and homemade chilli sauce. such a filling comfort food. although now it seems i cant finish it and by the time i am full, i felt like i needed a hose down shower in the car wash. you simply stink of meat grease (more so if you opt for the lamb meat).

i'll probably do a small post on the kebab joints here, InsyAllah as well as my culinary adventure on making the perfect cote de beouf :)